Anna Karenina

"The study was slowly lit up as the candle was brought in. The familiar details came out: the stag's horns, the bookshelves, the looking-glass, the stove with its ventilator, which had long wanted mending, his father's sofa, a large table, on the table an open book, a broken ash-tray, a manuscript book with his handwriting. As he saw all this, there came over him for an instant a doubt of the possibility of arranging the new life, of which he had been dreaming on the road. All these traces of his life seemed to clutch him, and to say to him: 'No, you're not going to get away from us, and you're not going to be different, but you're going to be the same as you've always been; with doubts, everlasting dissatisfaction with yourself, vain efforts to amend, and falls, and everlasting expectation, of a happiness which you won't get, and which isn't possible for you.'  
This the things said to him, but another voice in his heart was telling him that he must not fall under the sway of the past, and that one can do anything with oneself."
Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina

I could not have said it better myself. I've felt the same way after returning from so many trips abroad. The longer the trip, the grander my plans for a new life become. I won't allow the past to win though. I will be triumphant.

1 comment:

  1. You go! Do not allow the past to dictate your future! Make your own way and love it! Love you dear! Mom